So, Owen was born 2 years ago. Since then, i guess you could call me a stay at home mom, but i don't really like that label, especially since it does a poor job at explaining what a mother/wife really does. For the first 5 months of owen's life, I stayed home full time with him, making money by buying and selling on the internet. Then, I got a FULL time nannying job in Nashville which i brought owen with me. After that, we moved back to Indiana, and I nannied for about 6 months until I found my current job as a house-hold manager, where i've been for 7 months. I currently work 12 hours a week where owen does NOT accompany me. So, I'm still home the majority of the time, just not 100 percent of the time i guess you could say.
I tell you all of this because I feel like throughout these 2 years of being a mom, i've gone through major seasons. For a couple months, I will be super-mom and super-wife and just pretty much super woman. My house is clean all the time, the laundry stays in decent shape, I cook wonderful meals every day, I pack my husbands lunches, I do play-dates, we go on trips to the zoo, park, you name it, I organize, I work outside the home, I work out, i play and teach my child, etc etc etc, lets be honest...the list could go on and on. and then...I hit a different season. I wouldn't call it "depressed" but maybe just bummed out? These seasons look more like this: I'm exhausted, i'm burnt out, i'm tired, i'm sick of all the same meals, my routine is so monotonous it drives me insane, my house is a mess, my laundry is piled sky-high, i'm bored, i feel unappreciated, my kid is going-stir crazy from lack of play-dates, etc etc etc. It's during those seasons that i feel like JUST a stay at home mom. It's a rut. And lately, i feel like i'm in that rut. Maybe it's because it's not warming up outside or something.
Being a wife and a mom is so rewarding, but i guess just like anything, you have to remind yourself why you do exactly what you do.
I'm not sure why i'm blogging about this...probably because it feels good to get some thoughts written down. And nice reminder and motivation to myself.
Is anyone with me when i say COME ON WARM WEATHER!!!!
I tell you all of this because I feel like throughout these 2 years of being a mom, i've gone through major seasons. For a couple months, I will be super-mom and super-wife and just pretty much super woman. My house is clean all the time, the laundry stays in decent shape, I cook wonderful meals every day, I pack my husbands lunches, I do play-dates, we go on trips to the zoo, park, you name it, I organize, I work outside the home, I work out, i play and teach my child, etc etc etc, lets be honest...the list could go on and on. and then...I hit a different season. I wouldn't call it "depressed" but maybe just bummed out? These seasons look more like this: I'm exhausted, i'm burnt out, i'm tired, i'm sick of all the same meals, my routine is so monotonous it drives me insane, my house is a mess, my laundry is piled sky-high, i'm bored, i feel unappreciated, my kid is going-stir crazy from lack of play-dates, etc etc etc. It's during those seasons that i feel like JUST a stay at home mom. It's a rut. And lately, i feel like i'm in that rut. Maybe it's because it's not warming up outside or something.
Being a wife and a mom is so rewarding, but i guess just like anything, you have to remind yourself why you do exactly what you do.
I'm not sure why i'm blogging about this...probably because it feels good to get some thoughts written down. And nice reminder and motivation to myself.
Is anyone with me when i say COME ON WARM WEATHER!!!!
2 comments:
wow Lauren, thank you so much for this reality check. I will be staying at home when baby comes, but I'll also still be doing the music at our church, as well as hopefully picking up odd jobs here and there. I'm super excited to finally fulfill this dream of mine, but I know it won't always be a walk in the park and a bed of roses. Thanks for your honesty :) It's much appreciated. :) :) love you lots!
Lauren, I think there are times where you get "burnt out" because God wants you to take a look at your life and realize, you are a wonderful mom and wonderful wife, no matter what does or doesn't get done around the house, or no matter what you feel at that moment, who you are (wife/mom) is not easy! I think, even though they feel like a slump, that's when you should just take a break, look at life, and know your hubby and little man love you to death for everything you've done, and will continue to do! Those "slumps" are needed to keep you motivated, even if that motivation is a week, or so, later! :o) Hang in there, the weather will be nice and warm soon!
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